What really matters?

This is another one from the 2013 archives. I didn’t know what to title this, I hope the title I picked fits. The first few months of 2013 was a period of reflection for me. I had so many unanswered questions. Sometimes it felt like the world was just passing me by – nothing seemed new or exciting. It all just seemed bland. Anyway, fast forward to the later part of 2013 things got clearer and eventually better (Thank God). I’l stop now before I bore you with this intro lol… Enjoy todays post.

In a world
Where you think
Everything matters
You come
To the sudden realisation
That maybe nothing really does

We probably are
All just zombies
Masking pain
With smiles
That don’t reach the heart
Falling deeper
Into loop holes
Created by our very existence

Happiness
Such a simple word
Embedded in
Layers and layers
Of complexity
Full of
Whens
And
Whys
And
Maybes

We bury
Ourselves
In false hopes
And fallen dreams
Create a past
We desire
One
That isn’t real
Masking bitter truths
For fear
Of feeling pain

But
You see
Pain is inevitable
Unaided
To me
It is
The first step
Towards anger
Anger
Rage
Silent rush
Of pure emotion

Emotion
Unsaid
Untold
We pretend
It doesn’t hurt
We’re ok
We pose
We lie
We’re fine we say
When we really aren’t

Perhaps
Some people
Are truly happy
But
Sadness
It is real
Depression
Self doubt
And
All the others
We ignore

I know not
Why i write this
My mind is just astray
Yet again
In a million places
Questions unanswered
Dialogue avoided
Thoughts but into words
Deeper
I fall
Back into silence
And gloom

Hoping
For an ideal world
The ideal world
My ideal world

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