Well, guess who is back at it for the umpteenth time. Judge me not (or actually maybe I should be judged). At this point, I’m really just tired of coming up with excuses for why I haven’t been consistent. I did say in my last post or was it the one before the last (four freaking months ago!!!) that I wasn’t going to make any promises…
However, it’s October and I’m glad to say, I am in a much better frame of mind than I was at the beginning of this year. I’m going to credit that to all the moments of self-reflection I’ve had this year – and me coming to the realisation (AGAIN!!!!) that I have to try to be unapologetically me. It’s honestly tiring trying to exist as different versions of yourself… just because you’re worried about what people might say or think.
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”
― Bernard M. Baruch
The worst kind of conflict is the one you have with yourself. All the voices in your head arguing against you… To be whole on the outside and be in fragments on the inside…
Looking back at this post, I can say – I am truly flawed if I am not free. I realise that regardless of how much I think I know about myself, I am still growing, still learning… constantly on a journey to evolve and become a better version of myself. I realise now that its ok to stop, ask questions and be conflicted but, it’s never ok to decide to not move on.
Afterall, what would you really call your life if you decide not to live???
**photo credit – vignette1